Saturday, July 14, 2007
so disappointed in myself.sometimes when we get too complacant its never a good thing..cindy soh went thru the common test paper today..i knew that i failed once again. it was expected since i left most of it blank. what the hell was i doing? but its already over..aft class cindy stopped me and asked me if i still had alot of actitvities on hand.. i told her all the activities that i had. she's trying to help me i know..she told me to manage my own time..to prioritize. the same thing that many ppl have told me. and something that i have been telling myself to do too. but what is important to me?everything. all that i am involved in now means alot to me because its my passion.yet i am so confused cuz i am unable to juggle.went for foreign bodies after toking to cindy soh. we had a dance exam today..an exam on our routine for our upcoming performance. firstly the members that i had in my grp were not good.. espicially 1 guy which i typically dislike. wtf does he have to act this way..in the end all the freestyle moves were thought and taught by me.but i didnt do well for my dance exam.. guess i have some flaws.. the seniors say that i am not enjoying the dance..maybe its just my expression. actually the moment i start dancing i feel happy. i wasnt chosen out as one of the best dancers today. it really hurt me. its not that i wanna be chosen every week but its jus a goal that i aim for whenever i go for fb. to improve and improve. seems like i am deproving instead..sigh.all is not going well. i really have to start practicing dance again..soon..have to concentrate on too much stuff. making me blur. making me confused. i wish i knew what to do.mum talked to me ytd and told me to know where i am heading towards.are what i'm doing right now gonna benefit me? actually i stil do not know where i am walking to in my life.jus drifting around..but if u ask me to study like the way sonia and meizi do i'm afraid i cant. i'll die first.anyway i'm still in the midst of thinking and thinking every night..gotta sort these thoughts out.but i cant really figure it out too. jus moving step by step..but first.wanna thank some really great friends whom i really appreciate for the things they have said to me yesterday.weeyang, kc(who acc me til 5am), thomas cheung, thomas lim, andy tan, weiwen, albin ng(who acc me til 5am), and some other names which i cant think of now. they're such great friends. ppl who really brighten my day.takaiirs and loves
with my life.. i do
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