Saturday, May 17, 2008
another emo post. first day i go back in so long and now there's another prob..i was misunderstood. guess i was wrong..we all cant treat each other like buddies. have to be wary of one another. words fly around like virus, spreading from one to another. and the story changes from mouth to mouth. not knowing who to believe. i wish i knew what was happening.. why was i targetted. maybe cause i hardly came..hope things get better for me.
my baby.. the only 1 i need..the only 1 who is true to me.i love you so much
with my life.. i do
12:21 AMZ
Thursday, May 15, 2008
i am so afraid this time. ever since the audition for grad. ever since i was rejected by them. a sense of failure overcoming me. its the first time i've ever felt like this and it has brought me down badly. i have lost my confidence in singing. another audition on sat and i am afraid once again. never used to fear an audition, always had full confidence in myself and i always somehow managed to pull through to win a place either first second or third. this time, there's no second or third. can i do it? can i even get to the finals? i'm so scared but theres nothing i can do but to stand up again.. i cant let nyp's choice pull me down for my other opportunities..
hai..i'll try.i hope i can be the person i used to be once more. i have to gain back my confidence.
with my life.. i do
12:47 AMZ
